Bernadette Logue had all the ingredients of happiness: husband, job, education, a satisfying income, a Churton Park townhouse. Yet she was not content. Out of her despair arose her book Pinch Me: How Following the Signals Changed My Life.
She had studied tourism and management at Victoria University, gone to work as a secretary to then tourism minister Murray McCully, done various other executive support jobs and was working for a recruitment management company when she took stock of her life.
"I had climbed up the career ladder, had all the things you want in life, and yet there was a void inside me." No, she says, she doesn't think it was because she wanted children. "That would socially have been the next step if I hadn't been snapped awake.
"I thought everything I'd done was by default, and I didn't feel happy. Maybe I should start to live life on purpose. What did I dream of as a little girl? Living semi-rurally, a piano, a horse, riding. None of that was part of my life. I love the country and I was in the suburbs living a frenetic life.
"Nothing added up. I began to consciously think of what I wanted. People get to know what they don't want, not what they do want. I started to notice some strange little things, odd communications and synchronicity. I was seeing answers pop into my life, things mentioned, overhearing conversations. Someone said I should go to a spirit 'chaneller'." She did, nearly three years ago.
"It opened a can of worms. They knew things about me and my life they couldn't know. The session was challenging and confronting."
Logue, 34, who describes herself as "logical, process-driven and organised", says her mind began to open "and I began noticing signals like messages from the unconscious. I'd read lots about the fact that when you focus on what you want, the circumstances move in tune with it. I'd read it but didn't believe it. I began to record it in notebooks for 18 months and those notebooks ended up a book".
Pinch Me made Amazon's "new-age" best-selling list, and was a finalist in the Ashton Wylie Charitable Trust Awards, a lucrative New Zealand award for books in the mind/body/spirit genre.
"I followed the signals. Little things start one step forward and open up a range of ideas . . . I think those things are there to guide us if we choose to follow them. I'd boxed myself in."
She also attended a ThetaHealing course and spent "transformative" time in a Thai home for abandoned babies.
"Signals" came to her all the way.
"When my thinking changed, I realised I could design a life for myself and other people could too."
She and her husband now live on Waiheke Island where they have a piano, a big backyard and a big red doberman. She left the corporate life to focus on her self-published book which has sold about 1000 copies so far. She's writing another, in the same spirit, and has a Pinch Me website.
Pinch Me: How Following the Signals Changed My Life, $44.99
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