Prison Break star Wentworth Miller has revealed he tried to kill himself several times during his struggle to keep his sexuality secret.
Miller came out as gay last month in an open letter protesting Russia's anti-gay laws.
The actor told an audience at the Human Rights Campaign Dinner in Seattle, US, that he first tried to commit suicide when he was a teenager, TMZ reports.
"Growing up I was a target. Every day was a test and there were a thousand ways to fail it, a thousand ways to betray yourself," he said.
"And when you fail the test, which was guaranteed, there was a price to pay: emotionally, psychologically, physically.
"I paid that price - more than once."
Wentworth said at age 15 he swallowed a bottle of pills one weekend while his parents were away.
He said it wasn't a cry for help because "you only cry for help if there is help to cry for".
Miller opened up about the torture of hiding his sexuality while working in Hollywood, saying he was "filled with fear".
He said that during his run on Prison Break he gave "thousands of interviews. I had multiple opportunities to speak my truth. But I chose not to."
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