Slow down, you move too fast

TAKING IT SLOW: Going slowly gives you more time to learn from your mistakes.
TAKING IT SLOW: Going slowly gives you more time to learn from your mistakes.

For the first 30 years of my life, this was more or less my approach to learning new things: 1. Choose new thing to learn (craft/skill/instrument/language/etc), 2. Attempt new thing at a complicated level on first try (wedding cake decoration/popping and locking/the guitar solo from My Sharona/conversational Na'vi), 3. Fail at first attempt, 4. Give up in a furious huff.

This "try; fail; move on" tactic has led to a life littered with half-skills, which is sort of handy in the way that knowing enough of a language to ask where the toilet is might be: momentarily helpful but ultimately frustrating. I can sew enough to put together a costume and hope nobody looks too closely at it; if I think long enough I can still remember the only song I ever bothered to learn in full on the piano. There are plenty of other examples.

Over these most recent Christmas holidays, however, something remarkable happened. Through a mix of necessity (a costume I had to make) and curiosity, I decided to try my hand at leathercraft. Initially, I just looked up vague things like "how to sew leather", but soon found myself marvelling at the rather meditative videos of master leathercrafter George Hurst (here's one for those of you interested in the craft, or simply having trouble relaxing).

Next thing you know, I was reading leathercraft books and watching tutorials; I Skyped home to Mum and earnestly told her that I was making sure to study up before I so much as touched a tool to a piece of leather. We both remarked that it was a new start after so many frustrated dead-ends and refusals to slow down and learn if perfect results were not achieved straight away.

So what led to this lifetime of "I GIVE UP!!" tantrums?

A feature from New York Magazine, "How Not To Talk To Kids", published back in 2007, turned out to be quite enlightening. A friend of mine with a toddler sent it to me after I'd mentioned, in passing, my former habit of throwing in the towel at the earliest possible moment.

The gist of the various studies mentioned in the piece is that children who are praised for being smart (particularly the ones who are considered "gifted") will often baulk at trying something new if they know they won't get the same perfect results that earned them praise in the first place.

Psychologist Carol Dweck, who'd spent a decade studying the effects of praise on students, culminating in a study of 400 fifth-graders. As the New York piece notes, "Dweck had suspected that praise could backfire, but even she was surprised by the magnitude of the effect. 'Emphasizing effort gives a child a variable that they can control,' she explains. 'They come to see themselves as in control of their success. Emphasizing natural intelligence takes it out of the child's control, and it provides no good recipe for responding to a failure.'"

Reading the piece was a moment of enlightenment for me, for - and I assure you I wince with extreme embarrassment as I tell you this - I was a "gifted child" at school.

However, my giftedness manifested itself in the arts - painting, drawing, debating, writing and grammar - and it was a very different story when it came to maths. So much so that, frustrated by my apparent inability to master it, I pretty much gave up in Year 8 (with another two agonising years to go). At parent-teacher interviews, my maths teacher asked if there had been a death in the family, as it was the only way she could explain my blend of utter incompetence and lack of interest.

Earlier than that, though, I have vivid memories of refusing to recite my Times Tables during homework, because I knew I wouldn't get them right (apart from my beloved 1, 5, 10 and 11 Times Tables), so what was the point?

(There is room for a discussion of the issue of gauging intelligence based solely on mathematical abilities but it's not here, though it might be in a no-rules game of dodgeball where I hold the ball and my former maths teachers are on the other team and the ball is full of lead weights and my team is full of dogs with bees in their mouths and when they bark they shoot bees at them.)

Eventually my habit of giving up in a tearful fury became something of a running joke in my family; they called me "Kevin", after the similarly gifted yet identically flummoxed Kevin Buckman in Parenthood. "You made me play second base!!" is a common cry that Dad unleashes whenever I get stressed out in his presence.

So it turns out my excuse for all this lack-of-learning tantrum-throwing is "I was a gifted child!" (I just put 10c in the 'wanker' jar, I promise), but you could also argue that expecting mastery to happen rapidly and without fault is a generational thing.

There is so much information available to us today, and so quickly, it's not surprising that people are loath to take the time to do things properly. Who can be fagged taking out an apprenticeship or going back to uni, or even reading a few textbooks, when you can fast-track your skills on reality TV, read the Wikipedia entry, or just get someone else to do it for you?

It feels like such a roaring cliche to say "we live in a fast-paced age", and yet at the same time, it's been immensely rewarding to slow down and learn something new without expecting instant miracle results. Instead of buying every tool imaginable in a manic shopping frenzy with delusions of leathercraft grandeur, only to shelve them in disgust a week later (that's the 1982-2012 model), I have started with a few basics and some scraps.

So far my bevelling is a bit all over the place, and I sewed the lining into my wallet kit upside-down, but for the first time in my life, I didn't throw them across the room and start crying angry tears. Instead, I have relished the opportunity to go slowly and make mistakes and learn from them.

And who knows, maybe in a few months I will have learned enough to tool a belt that says "GIFTED CHILD". Or "MATHS SUCKS". I dunno, I'm going to take my time deciding.

- Daily Life

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