The man 13-year-old Jordan Nelson called Granddad still suffers flashbacks after finding his partner's bleeding body in the rural Okoki home the three shared.
"I thought my world had ended," Kerry Lock said as he read his victim impact statement to the High Court in New Plymouth yesterday.
Jordan Nelson was sentenced to 18 years' jail for the murder of Rose Kurth.
Mr Lock told the court he returned from shifting the stock near their Piko Rd home to find two bloody drag marks leading into the spare room.
He opened the door to find Ms Kurth lying on the floor with blood coming out the back of her head, her mouth and ears.
The ongoing effect of her horrific death at the hands of the boy he thought of as a son was immeasurable, he said.
"I suffer from vivid flashbacks that randomly affect my ability to maintain day-to-day tasks."
His voice broke as he said: "I miss Rose like crazy and all I can do is kiss the photo beside the bed every day."
Two of Ms Kurth's daughters also shared the effects her death had had on them.
"What Jordan has done has torn my family apart," Jimmy Kurth said.
Her children would now never have a relationship with their grandmother.
She spoke of recurring nightmares and her fear of being alone.
"I don't understand how Jordan could be so selfish and nasty, all because he was grounded and it was for a serious matter.
"I hate what you have done, you stole from me. Nothing can fix the pain you have caused," Ms Kurth said.
Their statements were two of three read to the court by their writers yesterday.
Several others were also before the court.
- © Fairfax NZ News
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