Why I would run with the bulls again

23:33, Jul 18 2014
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People cheer after hearing the midday Chupinazo rocket announcing the start of the San Fermin festival in Pamplona.
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A woman is thrown in the air before the midday Chupinazo rocket is sounded, announcing the start of the San Fermin festival in Pamplona.
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Runners sprint in front of Torrestrella fighting bulls at the entrance to the bullring during the first running of the bulls.
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People reach out to a statue of San Fermin from balconies on the saint's day of the festival.
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People wearing plastic bottoms await a statue of San Fermin on the saint's day at the San Fermin festival.
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The statue dating from the fifteenth century is paraded through the streets of the town in honour of the patron saint of Navarra and first bishop of Pamplona, and "Jotas" are sung and played in his honour.
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A woman gets crushed as thousands of revellers sing and dance during the opening and the firing of the 'Chupinazo' rocket which starts the 2014 Festival of the San Fermin Running of the Bulls.
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Revellers hold up their red handkerchiefs during the first day of the festival.
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Revellers hold up their red handkerchiefs during the first day of the festival.
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Revellers cheer from their balcony.
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Festival-goers are soaked in water and wine thrown from balconies.
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The annual Fiesta de San Fermin, made famous by the 1926 novel of US writer Ernest Hemmingway entitled 'The Sun Also Rises', involves the daily running of the bulls through the historic heart of Pamplona to the bull ring.
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Revellers stand on balconies watching the opening and the firing of the 'Chupinazo' rocket.
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Revellers run with Torrestrella's fighting bulls along the Calle Estafeta.
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A kiliki scares a little girl during the Comparsa de Gigantes y Cabezudos 'Giants and Big Heads parade' during the second day of the San Fermin Running Of The Bulls festiva.
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It is a bit scary.

At 8:03 am on July 9, three minutes into the third daily running of the bulls at the San Fermin festival in Pamplona, Spain, I stood near the tunnel into the arena, panting and frustrated.

It was my 10th year running with the bulls, and I wasn't having good luck. Four days earlier, I lost my backpack, which held my computer and passport; since then, things had been off.

It was raining off and on that morning. The cobblestones were extra slick. First-time runners were everywhere, and the crowd was roaring. I saw the long willow canes of the pastores, the official herdsmen of the run, poking out above tourists' heads.

Suddenly, a suelto, a lone bull, appeared ahead of me. When a bull has separated from the pack, he loses his herding instinct and sees all runners as predators.

That's exactly what this one did - throwing his horns at the dozens of scattering runners. Two legends, Miguel Angel Perez and David Rodriguez, ran masterfully in front of the suelto, using their bodies to guide him toward the corrals.

With the arena at my back, I stalked toward them, stepping past three British runners in matching blue shirts. The monstrous bull trotted toward me and I crouched, reaching my rolled newspaper - which, like a matador's cape, attracts a bull's attention - into his line of sight.


The bull surged toward Perez. I drew the animal's eyes with my paper, and together we lured him up the street; for a moment he was calmed. I reached my free hand behind me to let those nearby know that I was backing up.

Suddenly one of the blue-shirted Brits screamed and pushed my hand, refusing to move out of my way. One of his friends gripped the barricades separating the runners from the crowd, screaming at my side. When I had my first run a decade ago, just like them I was frightened and dangerous.

I had no room to escape when the bull charged toward me. I tripped over one Brit's feet, and another slammed his hand into my back, propelling me toward the bull's horns. Two of the Brits crisscrossed the animal while getting out of the way, while the third sputtered backward. The bull, named Bravito, meaning "fierce one," pierced his horn through my right thigh and lifted me into the air.

I grabbed my crotch and thought: Thank God it's not my balls. I want to have kids.

At first, there was no pain.

As I fell to the ground and scuttled toward the barricades on my back, Bravito gored my leg again. When paramedics pulled me to safety, I saw a racquetball-size hole in my mid-thigh. Blood ran down my leg and flooded my shoe.

Legendary runners such as Joe Distler had schooled me on how dangerous a thigh wound is; if the femoral artery is severed, you can bleed to death in seconds.

Michael Hemingway, Ernest Hemingway's great-grandson, was taking photographs nearby and rushed to my side. He took my hand and asked the medics if the artery had been pierced, translating their answer. "No. It's just the meat, the flesh," he said.

"Go find my wife and tell her I'm sorry," I told him.

Being gored is part of the bull-running tradition. Even the great runners have been gored: Matt Carney, David Rodriguez, Julen Madina, Juan Pedro Lecuona. And all ran again.

There have been 15 fatalities in the past century, but there are usually about 10 gorings a year.

The sense of danger - and the excitement of narrowly escaping it - are part of what got me into bull running. Danger has always been a part of my life.

I grew up as a very angry, violent young man in a rough neighbourhood on Chicago's Far North Side. My father was a gang leader in his youth and a street fighter. My eldest brother followed in his footsteps - becoming a gang member, getting addicted to heroin and then doing seven years in prison for armed robbery. A stray bullet from a drive-by shooting struck my sister, Katy, when she was 17, lacerating her liver and lung. She was resuscitated before surgeons saved her.

I knew I had to get out of Chicago before I got killed or stuck in prison. At age 15, I discovered boxing, which helped me refocus my life and get into college. But change took time: At 19, I served three months for battery as a result of a street fight.

When I read Hemingway's "The Sun Also Rises" my freshman year in college, I decided to travel to Spain to run with the bulls. At the time, I was also dealing cocaine and suffering from undiagnosed bipolar disorder. I sought out violent situations on a regular basis, and that is partly what led me to Pamplona. "Nothing in life is so exhilarating as to be shot at without result," Winston Churchill wrote in 1898. That is the joy of running with the bulls and surviving unscathed.

The run started as an adventure and became a way to get sober and redirect my life. I immersed myself in the Spanish bull-running culture, and found grace and camaraderie within it.

The first time I ran, in 2005, police kicked me off the course because I was doing everything wrong. I snuck back onto the path and ran La Curva, one of the more dangerous stretches, nearly getting trampled by a steer. Later in that day's run, I got to sprint alongside the pack but not close to it. This was more intense than any drug high. I felt more powerful than I had during any boxing match.

Still, I didn't think about coming back to San Fermin until I saw Miguel Angel Perezsave Xabier Salillas's life on July 11, 2005. A bull named Vaporoso had gored Salillas in the face, chest, stomach and leg. Perez grabbed the bull's tail, halting the attack, and then led him up the street and out of sight. That is what the run is all about - risking your life to come to another's aid.

I thought: I need to know this man. I need to understand this tradition.

In 2010, after running for several years, I ran a suelto with Perez for 100 yards. He has taught me that it's a runner's duty to move the bull up the street and keep everyone safe.

With time, I became more skilled at running with the bulls. So much so that the great runners, television and newspapers began to notice. Spaniards invited me to smaller bull runs, and I went. (The oldest run of all, in Cuellar, about two hours north of Madrid, is my favourite.)

In recent years, though, I realised that the tradition I loved so much in Pamplona was struggling. Thousands of foreign runners were travelling to Pamplona, uninformed - just like I had been my first time. They were doing things that get people hurt: running drunk, not staying down when they fell, pausing to take photos or pushing people.

So I started giving tours to first-time runners during the festival and writing articles on how to run with the bulls. Alexander Fiske-Harrison and I came up with an idea for a guidebook for English-speakers, "Fiesta: How to Survive the Bulls of Pamplona," which he contributed to, edited and published last month.

John Hemingway, Ernest's grandson, and Joe Distler, one of the greatest bull runners of all time, contributed chapters. European Pressphoto Agency war photographer Jim Hollander supplied pictures. Our goal was to give back to the fiesta we love so much by teaching newcomers how to run safer.

One example is to be careful about where you choose to run. An Australian runner was standing in La Curva this year when a Miura bull walked to where he and many others were watching. It sliced open his thigh, from knee to hip, and then followed him as he ran the wrong way up the street and gored him again. No first-time runner should be near La Curva; it's simply too dangerous.

When doctors stuck their fingers in my leg while repairing it at the hospital in Pamplona, it felt like someone had put a live electrical wire four inches into my thigh. I was screaming in pain. Finally they gave me morphine, then an epidural, and surgically removed pieces of the horn and clothing from my leg. The wound is partially open, with rubber drains in it to allow it to heal from within.

I've been in the hospital for more than a week. I feel good, and my doctors say the wound is under control. It will be stitched up when I'm ready to go home to Chicago, which should be soon.

My wife is considering divorcing me, though she has taken great and tender care of me in the aftermath. Before anyone told her the news, she knew I'd been gored; she said she just felt it in her gut. When she saw me after the accident, I was laughing. She told me I was stupid and smacked my right foot, sending a shot of pain to my wound. I run because it is part of who I am, and she knew that when we met nine years ago.

Some of my friends want to find those three Brits who got in my way. I don't. The run has taught me that there's no sense in revenge. But I would like to meet them, show them what happened to me and teach them how to react next time.

I will keep running for another chance to lead a Spanish fighting bull up the street. When that happens, I become one with the fiercest, most majestic animal on Earth. And in those moments, I am at peace.


• Wear clothing that fits well. Flapping fabric prods bulls to attack. If you wear a traditional faja, or sash, around your waist, tie it in a slip knot. Do not wear a belt. People often end up stuck on a bull's horn because their faja or belt doesn't break.

• Don't run drunk. Aside from the fact that it's dangerous, police remove visibly drunk people from the course.

• If you fall down, stay down. The bulls see best under their snouts. They also have an instinct to jump over debris when they gallop. If you stay down and cover your head, there is a good chance the herd will leap over you. Trust me: Getting stepped on is better than being gored.

• No cameras. It is illegal to have one on the course. You can be fined up to 750 euros for breaking this rule.

• Don't touch. If you touch a bull during the run, the pastores - bull herders - are likely to hit you with their canes. You are a guest at the Spaniards' party. The bulls are sacred to these men. Respect the bovine.

• Don't be a valiente, or "brave one." If you want to run with the bulls, you have to wait until they get to you. Run too early, and you'll enter the white-sand bull ring minutes ahead of the herd. There, the crowd in the 20,000-seat arena will pelt you with bread and vegetables. You will have failed to run with the bulls.

Rules are excerpted from Bill Hillmann's chapter in "Fiesta: How to Survive the Bulls of Pamplona."

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